Relationships ~ Relationships and some more of it

I was yesterday at a friends place just quickly (as quickly we women do a quick visit ) and I had another Epiphany moment. YES another one. Well we are talking about our relationships and journeys and about releasing and and and.
We all know that a lesson will follow us till we have learned it and relationships are mirrors of our selves. Not always, but often. So I was now mind boggled for month now, that I am rather well on my journey to my true self, but am still stuck in this relationship. Challenging I can say. yes I do love this person, but know as well that he is my teacher. Becoming more and more aware of all that is, can be at some times rather frustrating.
You know being on a spiritual journey doesn’t mean we have to pick each and every situation out of proportion and OVER analyze it. As then we are in the left side of the brain and ego is talking too. Often we have to be still and be in the right side of the brain, to be able to receive the answer.
Now that my friend and I were standing at the gate (remember short visit) we came to get to the point. About how it is our choice to stay in challenging relationships and/or to move on. My point is, yes I am ready to move on and out, believe you me. BUT and this is a bit one, my concern is here, will I repeat the lesson. As I feel I am still here where I am and just not getting it. Five years later – man I am so tired! And she said: yes Diana, it is till we find out what the repetitive situation is and this is what we need to learn aka release. FIVE years, give me a break. I can see NOTHING!!! How much longer.
We came to talk about EFT and that I would need to get some own sessions before being let out to the public . So I mentioned that in certain situations I am leaving my wonderful loving self and turning into this supermonsterbitch. In rage, spiting fire, claws out . . .you name it. BAM!!!!
Epiphany!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! There it is!! The repetitive situation. This challenging situation repeating itself over and over again. Universe made sure it is CONSTANTLY!!! But SO in my face and SO sore!! I needed five years to get it. Meaning perhaps I am now ready to release and perhaps this is as well the reason that my new house is ONLY available mid of June. Enough time to become aware of the whole thing and start releasing and breathing and releasing.

THANK YOU SOURCE AND THANK YOU UNIVERSE!!!

Now what does it mean for all of us out here. Yes it can take time. And yes you are still a wonderful person and loving. Nothing wrong with you. It just takes as long as it takes. Set boundaries, feel them what is right for you. BE loving towards yourself. Do not over analyze. When you ready, God will send you a sign and you will know. Trust me. YOU will know. So if you walk away from your lesson today and you haven’t learned it. It will follow you. New face, new place and new everything – BUT SAME LESSON. You will feel when you ready and when the lesson is learned. Promise!

Once you start waking up, there is no return. Sorry. You have to get through this and just let go of all that what is not serving anymore. This is the reason why we attracting these Teachers (which can be a pain in the back side for some time) into our lives. To learn and to remember. Like with all we learn, sometimes we get it right away and sometimes it has to be repeated till we get it. Do not beat yourself up now and check everything what is happening if it is repeating itself. As sometimes it can be some sort of “side effect” or it can be a catalysator.

BE good to yourself and LOVE yourself. Write a gratitude journal (YIP it helps, DO DAILY)
I leave you for today and am grateful for your time. Please take only what resonates with you.

Sending you love and light and lightness.

Diana x