As the old year draws to its close, I have made some notes with regards to manifesting some intents. Am pretty sure lots of others will do the same - rather a common thing.
1. Health for Oliver and I. Of course eating healthier and and and
2. Working on myself. Like self work and help can never stop after one has opened Pandoras Box.
3. Become filthy rich! Well not filthy as such, just mal very rich.
As I sat with a dear friend of mine and shared my thoughts, some old triggers were triggered.
Money does not define who you are and it can change you and too much money will uproot you .....
Am certain you know all the sayings from aware beings with regards to money.
There I sat - silenced. Which is a miracle in itself, if you know me personally.
Pondering, which fear has kept me from following through and succeeding in becoming financially independent ?
Is it my agreement with my mother, that I will never make it?
Is it my fear that I won't be accepted by the 99%?
Will I be a bad person because I belong to the 1%???
Perhaps all of that above and more.
I think due to many agreements of the past and some awareness, I have learned a lot, hopefully shifted a lot too.
Throughout my journey I have met many and plenty spiritual people saying: I can't afford ... with a scent of victim-hood.
Of course not all are like this!
Do we think to reach enlightenment, we need to suffer?
Does living simple mean without money?
Does living a basic rooted life, mean I can't be rich?
Since I left Oliver's father, I learned to trust that there is always enough. I learned to have faith and to ask for help.
I shed my pride .. Lots of it.
I can emphasis with those who do not have and don't know that they can change it. That it is their destiny to suffer.
I can feel those in pain and need.
But one thing I have realized as well is: you don't need to live in the slums and be poor to make a change and be heard.
This too, this dear friend of mine mentioned.
So what is still holding me back? Becoming this super rich person?
Which agreement is hanging on my heel?
Money has become for me a toy. (Some days I forget how to play with it though)
An energy I can call upon and release again.
I have not perfected it - as yet.
But 2015 is the year I am not waiting for others to guide me on this specific path. I am taking ownership and control over it.
No more listening to bake small rolls first ....
My engines are ready to go.
Full blast.
New agreements in the making.
No more holding on, taking and releasing at the same time.
No more guilt!!!
Just a plain understanding, that it is about choices.
There is more than enough for those who want and sadly never enough for those who don't see.
How about you?
Live light and free - it is all there ready waiting.
Love and lightness, see you next year.
Diana
