As it is unfolding - it is what it is

It is 05:38 in the morning here in South Africa and I have opened my newspaper (Facebook) and first posts the attack in Paris. This after we all have been distracted with the silly and useless news of a piece of space junk falling to Earth (this is another story all together) and being distracted.

 

Before anything else: I am sending peace, love and wisdom. be strong and wake up. It has become so clear what is happening globally and I wanted to share my thoughts, but have pushed it aside and postponed the writing.

 But now the moment seems right. It is easy and I will be brief. What is unfolding is the implementation of Agenda 30. Which is kind of a follow up of Agenda 21.

https://sustainabledevelopment.un.org/... and http://www.gdrc.org/ngo/agenda21/ch...

This are mere two articles explaining what it is about. If you look and read between the lines it is basically total control of humankind. No more rights whatsoever, full control.But how could Elite gain control without an uproar from humans about using their rights?

Lets bring unrest globally. Lets bring fear globally. Then humans will be willing to give away their basic human rights for peace. And if we sit back and look closer, since September the global “terrorist” situation has intensified. Seems far fetched? 

Let me give you some examples: 

1. Media is controlled, we do not have freedom of speech anymore really. Here in South Africa a peaceful student march was spiked by outsiders with violent outbursts. 

2. Drones, for our protection. Really? Or to control and know each movement and to study or behaviour and make plans there off? 

3. Vaccines: All and everything and everybody has to be vaccinated otherwise parental rights are being evoked? Or jail time or no jobs? 

4.Big Pharm: Chemtrails, GMO, Pesticides, Medicine, Vaccines, Diseases. We being bombarded from everywhere with toxins. 

5. Weather. Being controlled to create suffering with either floods or droughts. 

6. Terrorism. Artificially implement by those implementing Agenda 30. It was never out of control. For them all is according to plan. 

7. One world religion. Watch this space ........... 

8. War in the Far East. Using innocent brainwashed individuals to fight terror whilst Elite saps/steals oil or other precious raw material. 

9. Migrants in Europe. To break the individuals and not the industry. 

10. Money system is collapsing 

11. Get us out of the country into the cities and suburbs. To not be self sustainable and easier to be controlled.

 

I can go on and on about the happenings. Does it look bleak? No! Because so many things are being uncovered and brought to light. So many of us, yes call us conspiracy theorists or conspiracy warriors are working relentlessly to bring the truth to the forefront and to the masses. Often we do not have the scientific backup, but this urge within and the logic of a professional puzzle builder: putting the pieces together.

Bleak not at all. So many silently stepping out the system with building a new life and world within the existing one. Doing random deeds and spread love. Quietly and peacefully. Old ways make way for new. 

I know this might sound cold to some: but do not engage and give your energy into the happenings. Do not feed them with your precious energy and light. Hold your light and send strength to the situations and parts in need. Those meant to assist, are there. 

Do your best, even in a small way, to anchor light. We have currently history repeating itself: Dark is fighting Light and Dark is fighting Dark.

So I would suggest, let Dark and Dark do their thing and we do ours.we have become strong and we are growing stronger. More and more do awaken, hence the Dark/Elite is doing things now so openly. What you can do? Step out of the system wherever you can.Plant your food, get used to it. Well, I have killed another batch of seedlings :( Transition takes time, it is not happening overnight. Do not give up. 

 

QUESTION everything. Ask ask ask. Read read read. THEN let it resonate. LISTEN to this tiny feeling in your gut. THIS is your truth. It does not come with a science to prove paper of your truth. Our wisdom and informed decision is not connected to the outer world. HAVE courage to listen to this voice and act upon it. Walk this truth. Yes it might be scary and yes you might not know where it will lead you but walk your truth. As it is most likely mine. BECOME MINDFUL! You see naughty kids, don’t shout, as this would be our first reaction. Be calm, talk with kindness. Let your words be a seed of love. It might help or not. YOU did your best and with love. The more people are implementing kindness and turn away and bluntly walk over the terrorism , the more we gain ground.

So many talk about how our society as become cold and disconnected and not doing anything about it. Society has been groomed to think, somebody else will do the work and a pill will cure. Sorry not like this. YOU have to do the work, YOU have to heal and it is a process and it takes time. I can go on and on. Perhaps if you would like to ask or engage in a discussion, please do.We are so many waiting to answer and waiting to help.The time is now!

 

Me x

Forgiveness

Today is just like any other day.
Waking, working and doing 'shoulds'.
Yet for me it marked a special day. A day, where I have learned that I have to forgive.
This pain of wanting to be let out was strong.
Urging to be acknowledged and be set free. I wanted to be set free.
We all know forgiveness will set you free.
But there is a tiny difference between knowing and understanding.
 

If I could describe it as follows:
Knowing is when it is in your head.
Understanding is when it is in your whole being.

As am sitting in the dark and listening to the rain and enjoying the warmth of the fire... I am thinking back of the delicious 1.5hrs of truth and pain and release.

Still no clue how and what to forgive myself for. Nothing I can recreate or change what happened in the past.
But my whole being is light. There is peace and calm.

I feel I can conquer the world with a gentle touch and a smile.

The pain I carried with me for about a week, was unbearable. Hard on the outside and smiling, a warrior and bleeding and pain within.

How I avoided to use the word :  Forgiveness.....
Mumbling something, we are not a family that forgives.
Tears quietly making their way down my face.
I am strong and I don't show.....

The pain intense. Then calm. Calm and peace.
Still don't know what to do, but have found my pain.
I understand now clearly - today.
Tomorrow, I don't know.

Coming home with the intent to forgive myself and be kind.
To listen and to ask and then to listen some more.

I hugged my son. Grateful for his unconditional love.
He comes over and over to me: Miami , I love you.
Holding me and saying: It is ok.
I ask: what.
He says: just everything

Perhaps forgiveness is being gentle.
Forgiveness is taking time and being in the moment.

Forgiveness is to be grateful for the now and accepting that the journey is a process.
Forgiveness is loving yourself in this very moment as it is.

I love you and I forgive you

Xox

What I wish for 2015

As the old year draws to its close, I have made some notes with regards to manifesting some intents. Am pretty sure lots of others will do the same - rather a common thing.

1. Health for Oliver and I. Of course eating healthier and and and

2. Working on myself. Like self work and help can never stop after one has opened Pandoras Box.

3. Become filthy rich! Well not filthy as such, just mal very rich.
As I sat with a dear friend of mine and shared my thoughts, some old triggers were triggered.
Money does not define who you are and it can change you and too much money will uproot you .....
Am certain you know all the sayings from aware beings with regards to money.
There I sat - silenced. Which is a miracle in itself, if you know me personally.
Pondering, which fear has kept me from following through and succeeding in becoming financially independent ?
Is it my agreement with my mother, that I will never make it?
Is it my fear that I won't be accepted by the 99%?
Will I be a bad person because I belong to the 1%???
Perhaps all of that above and more.

I think due to many agreements of the past and some awareness, I have learned a lot, hopefully shifted a lot too.

Throughout my journey I have met many and plenty spiritual people saying: I can't afford ... with a scent of victim-hood.
Of course not all are like this!

Do we think to reach enlightenment, we need to suffer?
Does living simple mean without money?
Does living a basic rooted life, mean I can't be rich?

Since I left Oliver's father, I learned to trust that there is always enough. I learned to have faith and to ask for help.
I shed my pride .. Lots of it.
I can emphasis with those who do not have and don't know that they can change it. That it is their destiny to suffer.
I can feel those in pain and need.
But one thing I have realized as well is: you don't need to live in the slums and be poor to make a change and be heard.
This too, this dear friend of mine mentioned.

So what is still holding me back? Becoming this super rich person?
Which agreement is hanging on my heel?

Money has become for me a toy. (Some days I forget how to play with it though)
An energy I can call upon and release again.
I have not perfected it - as yet.
But 2015 is the year I am not waiting for others to guide me on this specific path. I am taking ownership and control over it.
No more listening to bake small rolls first ....

My engines are ready to go.
Full blast.
New agreements in the making.
No more holding on, taking and releasing at the same time.
No more guilt!!!
Just a plain understanding, that it is about choices.

There is more than enough for those who want and sadly never enough for those who don't see.

How about you?

Live light and free - it is all there ready waiting.

Love and lightness, see you next year.

Diana

The Money thing

I change, you change and they change

The last few weeks, let’s rather say MONTH, have been a true roller coaster of learning, growing, swimming (some days only floating) and letting go on the wave of life. My journey!

It was incredible … NO – Wonderful, bitter sweet, painfully beautiful!
All the changes I always wanted in my life, have been manifested and it took me a lot of few moments to see. Changes I wanted to implement and just to BE happy.

 

On this road of change, I stumbled upon new ideas, life styles and people and different believes. A diverse spectrum of creation itself is happening.
What gotten me thinking the most lately is, the various systems we living in.
We all know that these systems are opted out for WANTS – NOW and becoming a slave to money. Society is addicted to all of this. We have been bread towards such a behavior for decades if not centuries. And are now over all surprised, when we look at our children and find the first wake up call and seeing what has happened (so I hope). Like a fine web this structure has been build throughout our lives.
For example, all these in store cards of major retail chains, targeting the masses with the slogan:” you cannot afford to buy, get a card and pay off. “
Now look into your purse and tell me how many cards of these do you have? How many credit cards?
Even with this so called world recession going on, have the banks and retail chains stopped marketing for the masses and underpaid to make these cards attractive?

NO! On the contrary, have heard an advert the other day: get your car on credit approval and drive TODAY – start paying in January!
Lord help me here! January? The worst month of the whole year!!!!

Now that we realizing how enslaved we are, we are more than willing to make changes in this respect.
I remember how for several weeks and month the big financial markets have been occupied. Wonderful how so many people pulled together and showed the support.
BUT – actually it starts at home. Like with everything,

We as society need to change our way of living and perceiving. Our own values, and the world’s values. We need to stop allowing media and cooperates to tell us who we are and why we are and how we are.

This permanent pressure of should and should not. Compromising, true living of ones own life, love and all that is.
Children growing up in a society, where parents both work full time and true love and attention gets replaced with a I-Phone, Wii and more worldly goods. Yes of course this is what kids see and want, as it is shown where ever they go.

Sure this is how life is happening today. But can it be changed?

Easy! hehe
Define what your true needs are, everything beyond that, is a want. Then define, if you truly want it now or it can wait (or you just want to have it now to keep up with the Jonses).
Our world society is thriving on making us wanting everything - NOW.

YES, it is rough and yes it is a HUGE transition.
But start reducing those in store cards and credit cards (yes yes I know, you cannot purchase a house or car if your do not have a credit record, well better non than a crap one). Do not give your hard earned money away for silly interest, on clothes you still paying off, which are already last season.

We all need to eat and live. But how is the question. Scale down to the YOU, you are. Those who will not understand, do truly not matter.
YOU need to sleep peacefully at night and not worrying how you will pay rent on an eight room mansion (where you only occupy two of them).

Remember the old days, when we girls gotten irons, bedding etc for our birthdays? Oh I so hated it! And yet I was grateful that I had it at the end.
Remember, when we saved money to buy our first bicycle or new clothes?
We do not need to have it all  - TODAY! This is where we give our financial power to the banks and corporate.

What we need today is, to remember that things are not people. Things, will not give us love and things will definitely not change the world.

YOU CAN!

For me? I will pay off my Woolworths in store card and close the account.
My motto from now on is: if I cannot afford it now, I do not need it.

Wishing you love and peace on this insanely beautiful journey

Love, light and lightness

D x

Bullying ... not only for little people

Besides ADD/ADHD – Bullying is the next big thing in schools and kindergarten. Have you ever wondered where it originates from? This most likely would required a closer look why and how and a pinch of honesty.

Whatever follows now, PLEASE there is no judgment involved and it is my personal view and opinion. If it resonates with you what you will read – great. If not, discard it.

As I look at bullying it seems to me a form of defense. Children do not think, they act out of impulse and intuition. They copy what they see and make it their own. So, when they feel they not coping and their needs are not met, they will have to voice it somehow to their surrounding, that they only surviving. Some kids get quiet and withdrawn, others hit and bully (as they have seen it). Plain good old attention seeking.
 

Now you may ask, can we do? Easy, find out where the child is lacking of nurturing. Meet the need and break the pattern. Yes, it is the parents’ responsibility, you quite right.

Now there where the part of I AM NOT JUDGING comes in. 

Parents have their own stuff to deal with, and I am sure we agree, the world is a rough place right now. So many demands to meet and the rat race seem never ending.
Now, parents are only humans too and cope with life and deal with what they have learned.

It is becoming aware of oneself, how we work and re-act, before we can change it into acting. And through acting a change in pattern will occur. So, once the parent becomes just a tiny bit aware of oneself and this tiny bit changes, so will the child. As we all know children, to sponge off the energies from their parents.
 

When big people bully, it is often with so much violence and anger involved, that changes are not possible anymore. Or so it often seems. Domestic violence is wide spread and often kept under wrap and only spoken about it, behind closed doors – if at all.

Please do know, THAT I AM SOOOOO aware of that and as a newly single mother, it is rough on all fronts. Own healing (aka becoming aware), being a mom, play friend, boundary setter and so much more.

Perhaps, we as society, instead of looking at it as something bad and punish. Let’s view it from a different angle and find an opportunity to break the pattern. Domestic violence and violence in general can only be broken, by showing different ways already to our children. The following step is, to heal family homes and ultimately the communities.
Yes I agree, it seems like HUGE task. But we can do and make changes. Tiny steps can do wonders.

Bullying does not have to be, take some time and make a difference. A child bullying, might not be cured with a hug. But it can put a balm on a sore or two and give hope. Hope, that violence is not always a solution and the norm. Hope, that one can be different and hope that LOVE exists.

So that little bullying children will not grow into big bullies, which do much more than just bullying.
 

A hug and a kiss, can do wonders… so does a smile and a hand reached out to help

Love and abundant blessings

D x

Happy Love Day

Can you believe it. It is already so far into the year, that we have and yet again a Valentines day. Will it be any different than last years?
Yes!!! I am now surrounded by peace and love. Have had one Valentines smooch (blush) already! tHAHAHA, it can only get better from here onwards!!!

Yesterday I had an emotional wobble and ultimately fall out with my soon to be ex husband. Well, I have made a case against him for assaulting me and have been yesterday subpoena to appear in court on the 01 March 2012. Lord, I was afraid!! I was angry of fear. Then in this emotion I have phoned my ex and just lashed out. Not that he did not deserve it, but it was an energy not worth dwelling upon. I know then and I know now!
Till just recently I have found out, that as a kid I have been taught, that pain is my sign of love. So I phoned my ex, to get my dose of "love". Needy love! This one is a rough one for me.Lots of work and lots of deep work!
So still, even after now good six month of moving out, there are days, when I go back and get my dose of "pain love".

How many of us are actually thinking that we need somebody or something to make us whole. To love us, so that we can love? Finding always the need to create certain situations and finding people to make us feel the way we felt when we were little. Is this truth still true? Or can we now rewrite it?
Everything which is vibrating and originating from an unhealthy need, I feel is ...NO GOOD!

Yes, of course we all love to be touched and kissed and hugged and cuddled. But let it come from a place, of knowing who we are. Let us already be filled with love and understand that we are it.
We do not need atrificial aproval of love. We do not need pain to feel loved. No more bad words.
So if you are somehow, seeing yourself and being aware that similar is happening to you - it is ok!
And this too shall pass .... LOL
Honestly, the moment you are aware that it is happening, it is ok. You are ahead already and can learn to change the need of  the needy love.

Being on this journey is wonderful and some days frustrating. As I can see and am feeling helpless that it is returning again and that I have re-acted, instead of acted.

Be gentle to yourself as I am to myself. After all, it is Valentins day - - one of 365 Valentins days this year.

Love does, what love does best ~~~~ LOVE!

Have an AWEsome day, I love you and I love me

D xox

Moments that matter

Good Mornings,

what a few days it has been since Friday afternoon.

My kitty Sally was very ill, of chronic kidney failure and was on her way to leave this lifetime. So my son and I went on Friday afternoon to neighbouring village and gotten the: "letting go" remedy from a holistic vet. This remedy would help Sally to let go and pass peacefully.
Saturday morning, Sally was sitting on the kitchen floor, one could see not well. So I picked her up and took her downstairs. Showed her our log house and the forest. Stood there for a while and let her soak in the view of the high trees. Later took her up and laid her on the bed and gave her some more remedy and tea. Again speaking to her: that my son and I are safe and she could let us go!
By 2pm that Saturday she passed.
My son of five told me several times: Mami, it is ok. You can cry. But Sally is now fine and playing with Harry and the rabbit.


Why I am sharing this is: to enjoy the moments and appreciate the beings crossing your path and traveling with you.
Even though I found, we all KNOW to be in the NOW and the moment. We are more than often not, getting in-tangled in "shoulds" and buying just another five minutes of what we think (or others think) we have to do or think.
I have found now, that since Sally was sick and dying, that I became more mindful about what matters. Started DOING and saying things that are truly me. AUTHENTIC.
LOL even am learning to play again with my boy .... Lego! Often in the pace of society (not life) we forget not only what truly matters, we even forget how to be in the moment and how it is done. Just like playing for example.

So today, I wished that I have taken more time out to cuddle with Sally, which has taken so excellent care of me emotionally. With such unconditional love. Today I wished, that I would have not said so often to my son: go and play, I am busy..give me five more minutes. But it is in the past now. Nothing I can make unhappen or change.

Today I understand, that no matter what - it is always possible to just stop and take time out to make matters and moments count. Nothing else actually is important, than these moments. Enriching our lives, filling us up with love, gratitude and appreciation.

Oh and one on the side, Universe is helping me in re-learning and being in the moment. At our new  house, I do not have internet right now ... so lets cuddle and play and go to the beach.

Have an AWesome day and feel the moments

D xox

Changes and Shifts and so much more

It has been a while, since I have written and expressed myself here.
Lots has happened and still happening. Shifting and changes are on a daily occurrence right now.
All these odd emotions, which I thought I have dealt with, coming up again and again and again.
Sigh.... well, I have learned to take it as it is and stay as much as I can in the flow and release deeper and deeper.

Now, I have had the urgency to change the way I am writing this blog. It will be from now on a voice from me, my journey and messages. Kind of a diary on where I am at and where I am going and if I am going.
So many writings exist already on gratitude, love, forgiveness etc. that I feel, I would like to take you with, on my journey. Perhaps, you will find some value in it for yourself and maybe it will give you some answers on your journey. As ultimately what I feel it is about: to remember who we are and become our true self. And this is LOVE and returning home to Source/God! As ONE!

As you most likely know or not, I used to live in an abusive marriage for six years. Last year my son and I moved out. I had enough courage and strength, to leave. Even though seeing and understanding, that the past is about learning and letting go, it is still a process and challenge. Almost daily.

Being positive and understanding the Law of Attraction (lets say most of the time),gets me often into a state of frustration. Frustrated that it is not quick enough, that it still hurts and I am still attached to some old lessons. Man oh man, those days I can jump up and down the walls and be so  ...  human?!

By allowing and reminding myself to be in the flow of things, I can see things start happening for me. Good things, falling into place almost all by itself.
My son and I, have moved house past weekend. He has chosen the house and to be honest, I am happy that I did trust his instinct. It is surrounded by pine trees and I can hear the sea far away.
Actually, magic you will have, where ever you want it to be.

Will leave you for now, as I want to write some more about what has happened yesterday at a counseling session. Very very interesting indeed.

Am wishing you a wonderful day and sending you love and abundance

Diana xox

The old belief about sex

I wonder if I must put a disclaimer right here on top or on the bottom after I have written down my thoughts…mmmhhhh
Since lately my vision becomes clearer and clearer and old beliefs and therefore separation in various areas of our lives, are SO in my face.
One was a topic of a discussion at a braai (barbecue) the other night.
Why men need to (want to) have sex every night and why women don’t.
Please be aware, I am now here generalizing!!!

Let me start with men.
I have been told that evening, that most men express their LOVE for a women through physical aka sex. That a man NEEDS to have sex to feel loved. This statement I have now heard more than once and not only from men … from women also.
Perhaps before I started my journey, I might have taken this on a kind of a truth. But now?
Is this true? Or this as well one of those handed down illusions and it actually is not this way?
This picture of being a “true” man, once he has had lots of women?
Do men not feel like us women?  Lots of questions.

Here we go for the women.
Some comments were: I do not need sex that often. Once a week if at all, is enough.
Often I have come across as well, that women give their bodies away (have sex) in search for love.
Which of course will leave them empty.
Sadly there is no honesty and often one hears: OH, I can have a one night stand.
Sorry ~ this I think is not true, lets be very honest here!
This too, a handed down illusion? Or are women more connected to Source subconsciously and have sex with feelings? Or is it more attachments?
More questions.

Lately too, here in South Africa another TV station is about to bring upon this country a pay porn channel. Right now I do not even know how I must feel about this.
As in my eyes, sex is being used more and more in a manipulative way. Leaving women without dignity and pride. Women being used as a better kind of relief “things”. Rape and domestic rape and violence. Men being outed as sex addicts. Child pornography. There are no more limits. There is nothing sacred anymore. Even the music videos. It suppose to be about the music and not half naked young girls producing themselves.

Sex has separated male and female to such an extend, sex has publicly become dirty. And in a way it is ok. Which I find very scary. It has a very needy touch from both male and female and what is needy is not balanced. It is more a being used and use game. The energies are not exchanged, it is tapped into and drained. Often leaves one side empty. Lots of fear involved too.
Separation of two, which actually are ONE in two bodies.

What I am saying is, one can be open and talk about sex and yes have sex ~ but it is a scared union.
I think, one need here too, to let go of old beliefs and thoughts and re-asses ones own views and needs on sex.
When one becomes more aware about ones own body and feelings, sex has a complete different meaning. We are starting to balance out male and female energies in our bodies and allowing new. Sex is not anymore the physical release as such. It becomes more a dance of two souls and a magical exchange of energies. An opening of the heart centers and flowing and a give and take. Not one sided anymore. This is sacred. It is divine.
As divine love we all are.

As long as fear is living within a person, there is the separation and no sacred sexual union will be possible I think. It will stay needy. Women have to let go of being often used and abused. Letting go of being the victim with no choices. Men on the other hand, letting of of the thought: having sex is being loved and the only way of expressing love. And letting go of the power thought.

Now here too, let go of the old and allow the new in.
Allow the divine love and the divine sex.

In love, light and lightness
D xox

Let go of the old core belief

THIS ~~~~ has been a major thing for me, and let me explain to you why. Because, once released - you live truly happily ever after.
As you all know, on this wonderful journey, we meeting and greeting people and situations in our lives to learn, grow, become aware, accept, allow and let go (lots of let go).
Good things and not so good things or challenges will give us the ride of our lives.
Now how sometimes, it all seem just so unfair and things are getting worse and worse instead of better?


Hej, take it with a pinch of salt, this is Universe handing you another opportunity to RELEASE!We as humans on this journey tend to re-create situations, which make us feel the way we used too. Sadly it is often not so nice and I would like to call it, just for this time---suffering.

Imagine, you are a small child and have had a rough upbringing or a rough experience, which shaped your belief system. Your fear. Lets say for instance, your parents never had time for you, no matter what you did. You always felt not good enough for receiving their love. This now, is one of your core beliefs and fears.
Not being good enough to be loved and love.
What will happen now, that you will carry THIS feeling of knowing and understanding throughout your life and will create all the time situations to feel this way. Comfort the pain we know. With years going by, of course your physical body will start too, showing strain. Giving you signs of discomfort and wanting you to become aware of the suffering within. Some bodies go so far, that one has no more control over the weight, the stomach has ulcers and and and.
No matter what you will touch in your life, subconsciously you will sabotage it already from the beginning.
Yes, this is how it works. Like Shrek said: We are like onions ~ have many layers.

Now what can you do to get hold of this fear? Easy ~ start your journey of becoming aware. Remembering who you truly are.
Knowing, that this too shall pass (oh man, now I said it myself LOL)
Along on your journey, you will invited people and situations into your life, which will assist you in getting down to the nitty gritty and be able to release those fears. There too, are wonderful techniques such as EFT/Tapping for example.
And yes, these fears and old thoughts are nothing else, than an illusion. It can be changed, as quickly as you breath out.

Once you have let this go and are aware for what it is, your life will change almost in an instant.
Physical pains will disappear, your weight might just sort itself out. You will be able to see life in a very very different way and be able to make better choices. For yourself and for all of us.
No more fear and no more darkness.

Love yourself and open up to all those opportunities around you.
We are here to assist and we are here to path the way.

In love, light and lightness
D xox

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The Collective Consciousness and BEing One

The recent weeks and month have been filled with mass protests around the globe.
More often than not, peaceful mass gatherings, to create awareness and stand up for peace and freedom.Yes times are changing, humanity is moving energies.

Even though, still lots of humanity is fast asleep, somehow subconsciously there is an awareness which perhaps cannot be explained by many. They following an instinct, which they not aware of really and supporting the masses. Which of course is pretty great.



But, how much power does this collective consciousness have, you may ask. Does it have power at all?
Let me give you one very interesting example. ONLY MY THOUGHTS!!!!! (and please only what resonates with you). Lets look at the very very old nation of the Jews. Looking back, way back, the Jewish people have always suffered. Look through the history of the world. The most recent and most terrible one was in the big war two. Now lets just follow this thought: has this nation ever broken the cycle of collective suffering. Yes of course other people have implemented the suffering upon them. But what I mean is, as the law of attraction does exist and works, can a whole nation collectively think they suffering and attract it?

Look what has happen in South Africa just yesterday. The information bill has been passed. Meaning, again a government officially hiding and corrupting as the previous one (oh I know this is nothing new for governments) and again most of the African population will stay poor and below minimum existence. Now it is not the white minority ~ this time its the own people. Again a nation has collectively manifested, they are poor and being treated inhumane, being cheated at and it is happening again.

Can you see what I am getting at?
How powerful this collective consciousness is? Yes, here and there are some which get out of it and walk their own path. Isn’t this an interesting food for thoughts?

My thinking now is, how can one break this vicious circle of repeating it over and over again?
There are so many already awakened and planting and seeding love, but is it enough?
Is it enough to break this cycle of suffering? Or here again do we have to honor those on the journey and let them walk their path. Pray and hope they will see us and our light and love and change their direction?

Now, if the suffering on a collective conscious level can have such an impact,.
How come we do not get it, that by switching to love and peace and freedom, we would have the same affect? Globally and collectively!! Does this make sense to you?

We each are a drop and belong to this huge ocean. Each and one of us is important in this game of the big shift. And need to remember, that we are all connected. No matter what you do or not, it has an affect on everybody else. This is where one has to take responsibility for their lives and actions and thoughts. Become aware and live a mindful life.

As we are so much more powerful with our thoughts and actions, than we think. Signing a petition, wearing black, a colored ribbon, recycling etc. has an impact on all of us. It is a tiny deed and yet giving a signal to the Universe, we are connecting with others. We are ONE!
Being aware and not mindful is not picking up your responsibility for your life and ours.

Now all this has been going through my mind for a while and am now putting my intent out, that those cycles of collective suffering will be broken and collectively (I mean  ALL) remembering what we came to do.
Love this world to peace!

In love, light and lightness

D xox

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What is it about attachments and assumptions

Yet again, I am sitting in my favorite little coffee shop and glooming with smiles and happiness. So many things lately crossing my path and I feel so grateful for so many lessons learned and so much release. It is wonderful.

Just a few minutes ago, a very special friend of mine has had coffee with me. I am left with so much love, that I cannot comprehend.
Why this time I am writing about attachments and assumptions is the following: As this has been one of the things I have learned the past few days. Letting go of attachment.
As we all most likely know attachment and assumptions are originating from fear ~ fear yet again is an illusion. But as we have lived it for so long, we THINK that it is real. Which is not.
Attachments come in many forms and shapes. Most common one is the needy and clingy one. We holding so desperately on to things and people, of fear loosing them and leaving an open space within us. Not knowingly (or perhaps we do), that no thing or person, can fill a void within us ~ except us!
Now we sitting here with this overwhelming feeling of not being able to breath, the fear if we do not hold on to the thing or have to phone the person, we not going to be able to survive to some extend.
It is EGO having the hand in the game and sending out thoughts of need and fear. The clingy one.

Than there is the attachment, of building up a total resistance or wall around ourselves and telling ourselves that we do not want love or things which have been freely given to us! Because here, we are projecting our fear upon others. To get hurt or disappointed.
Again the control of an outcome, where we do not have power over.
What an old belief this is. Shame, poor fear.

See, love in its purest form has no attachments and is free. Freely given and freely taken. It is an exchange of energy which happens very naturally and cannot be described with any of the words existing in human terms. Love just …..IS! Always has been and always will be.
Any attachment and meaning we giving it is a label, which ego has a habit of doing.
Sit back, look at it, allow it to be what it is and release yourself and the other person or thing.
Release the need of control, as attachments too is control due to fear.
Love does not control, love just loves. Be free of it and you will see how much lighter you will feel.

Now to assumptions. Am smiling, assumptions I feel are a part of attachment. As we tend to assume, that a person or thing should or should not be. (I SO dislike the word: SHOULD) Because we want to have power/control over the outcome or the thing/person.
Assuming too, is fear controlling something it can not.
The only person you are holding prison is ~ yourself. Prison of the emotions fear ~ which is not existing. Something one has to consciously release. To be set free and set others free.
We need to understand, that by letting go off attachments towards the other person or thing, we releasing our selves into all that is. Allowing ourselves the freedom of loving and love.

Each time to see and realize that it is an attachment or assumption, it is one way closer to who you truly are and are allowing a shift at the same time.
Which is so wonderful and light and so good for you and for me and humanity. As only a shift can occur when you allowing it.
So let go of the holding on to things and giving it meanings, which ego thinks is right.
The true you, knows where to go and knows already everything.

Love is like a butterfly. Wonderful – beautiful and magical. You cannot hold it, as it would die.
So allow it to fly pass you and you will have one magical moment after the other. Most of all, be surrounded by love ~ ALWAYS!

In love, light and lightness on this magical journey back home

D xox

What Is Love …..

…….this is the question.


When ones asks around: What is love? One might get various replies. And the most amazing thing is, to find out how different people are feeling about this feeling thing: LOVE.
Often it has a physical meaning or a needy one. Coming from a place of fear, not being good enough to love or be loved.
The so called love gets cut off and “taken away” with a break up or an argument. There is no in between.
Either I love you or I don’t.

I would like to drift away from the common understanding of love.
Perhaps lets look at that special love, which starts within one own self and extends to all that is and surrounding us.
It is an acceptance of who we really and truly are. Letting go of old habits and masks, we used to hide behind. Which we thought would define us, so we are able to love and be worthy of love.
This we need to un-learn and learn again, that we are indeed SO able to love and SO worthy of love.
Once the acceptance has kicked in, we become almost like a love-well.
Which overflows and floods all, touching lives with warmth.
What an effect this has on all around us!
You might just experience that others will be afraid of you. Afraid of the purity and love and happiness you will radiate. Afraid, because they will not know it or understand.
Only two thing here can happen, either they will run away as fast as they can OR come closer because they curious and want to be as happy as you are. And this is, what we want. More happy and loving people.
LOVE has so many wonderful side effects. Like being happy, patient, grateful, compassionate, calm and peaceful, just to name a few.  And the best part, you cannot overdose!
My most favorite side effect is: compassion!
It gives you so much freedom to love everybody around you, even thought they might not like you and you might not like them in particular. Meaning, one does not have to sit cozy with each and every one on this planet on the couch and sip tea. It will allow, you to get past fear and anger of others. You will forgive so much quicker and easier (btw  forgiveness too, is a side effect of love). You are able to allow yourself, to be as you truly are and allow those around you too, to be who they are.
Total freedom and total peace.
With compassion you will be able to help others in need, without being emptied up emotionally by getting involved. If this makes sense.
Love is so much more than hugging and kissing and being held and have a special someone. Which of course everybody wants and yes needs in a way. But please again..not needy.

I have learned to be in love with my self and life. It is the most amazing thing. Each day is an absolute miracle. Bouncy steps and big smiles on my face. If I still have not so good days? OH yes of course, but can easy get pass that, as I know and understand that these not so good days a) shall pass too and b) will be released and the spot refilled with love again.

With love, you actually cannot go anymore eye for an eye, as one attracts only the best in ones lives and further compassion kicks in and one would walk away from certain situations in any case.
Yes it is pure bliss to be in love and to be love.
Is it work? Mmmmhhh yes at the beginning. As it sounds so incredible unbelievable. And one has to un-learn the fear part and learn the love part.
Does love hurt? NO! Never has and never will hurt anybody nor yourself. Who gets hurt is the ego, the old belief system. Ego thinks: one should be hurt when there is no love or has been taken away.
See, love cannot be taken away when one IS love. Yes, a person might not be there anymore to hug and kiss and hold. But by understanding the being unconditional, one releases the other person and oneself, for the highest good of all. As love is not self centered.
With this I will LOVE and leave you. I wish you to find the button to switch into love and feel this amazing vibration and energy.
Did not the Beatles sing long time ago: All we need is love…….
In love and light and lightness on this wonderful journey
D xox


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What does Faith mean to you?

As I am sitting here in a wonderful little coffee shop and should be actually writing those mails, marketing my little EFT=Emotional Freedom Technique endower here in our new home.
Am thinking, how far I have come the past few weeks and about the driving force which got me here.
FAITH!
This short word, has a powerful energy in it, behind it and surrounding it. It comes straight from the Source, God or what other name you want to give it or you believe in it.
Faith is more than just this five letter word. It is a feeling of trust and love and inner knowing.
It is an energy making you grow wings and helps move the mountains and make your dreams come true. It allows you to surrender and be in the now. The moment which keeps you in a serene state of heart and mind. It helps you make choices, which others not feeling faith will never understand. Allow you to walk your path with eyes closed and achieve things, beyond anything you have imagined.
With faith comes trust, that all is well and will be well. It will give you the security, that all your TRUE needs are met. For example, you will have sufficient food and a vehicle. Perhaps not the SUV right now you want, but four wheels taking you, where ever you need to be.
Trust in your own abilities, you already know you have and trust that you will have further abilities to take you there where you want to be.

Trust and faith, that where you are right now is the place you have to be. Often we humans tend not to learn our lesson with out pain inflicted. Yes it is rather sad, but hej – it is as it is. Surrender to it and again TRUST, that it shall pass. By surrendering and being in the now, there is no rush. You can sit back, enjoy your coffee (as I do) and let opportunities knock on your door. You will have the peace within, to actually see them and feel if it is right for you.
You will be able to say NO, should something not feel right to you. Knowing and trusting, that a new better opportunity will present itself. There is no need for desperation acts.
Within this vibration, there is no space for good old ego nor the old habit of being fearful. It allows you at all times to be at peace and allows to be still and be love. Have compassion. Imagine yourself as being an astronaut on Moon and walk in the air with a huge grin on your face and in slow motion.
No rush ….. hehehe …. you will get there. In YOUR own time.
Faith is a great thing. As you can see, it is not just a word. Faith needs to be cultivated, believed in and seeded into your heart. It needs to be felt with each cell of your physical body. Let it fill your lungs with every breath you taking and become a part of you. Faith and trust CANNOT be faked.

I will now love and leave you. Have my little sandwich with my coffee and sit back and smile. As I have received a call (which I have received whilst writing this words) for perhaps a business opportunity. See? It works like magic, this trust and faith. And it is 11:11 am, what more do I want?
Have faith and trust that all is in divine order and we are well on our way.
In love and light
D xox

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Do not skip, do not cheat...go with the flow

Don’t we know all that feeling of being impatient with things, situations, relationships etc. and wanting to skip a step or two in the process?
Welcome to the club! This is the most annoying feeling I know right now. Perhaps for somebody who is not awakened or aware yet, this might be just a thing one has to go through. Which it is.
A break up and then being heart sore. A death and grieving. A project coming on to slow and and and.
BUT once you awakened and KNOW you can and should actually letting it go – much quicker. Soje, impatience!!!
One thinks: man I know, easy as one, two , three. It is what it is and let it go!
No! Sorry to disappoint you. Or at least so it is with me.
One has to go through all of the little tiny steps in between. From heart broken, to heart sore, to the feeling of being able to breath again.

This is with all in life. There is kind of a set plan. This is lives experiences.
You do not think so? Mmmhhh I have two more examples:
A cold comes three days, stays three days and goes three days. Even though one takes meds, for some odd reason this time span is not being shortened.
Another one: pregnancy. You fall pregnant, have to be pregnant for the nine month and then only give birth. Hahaha just imagine otherwise. No, I don’t!

This is what being human is about. To learn and to experience. Every single time to feel and follow the process of your lesson. Good or not so good.
No matter what it may be. These are the things one has to go through, to get to the other side. No short cuts. So do not beat yourself up about it.
Oh, in a way there is one. Mean shortcut. Do not get consumed by the emotions.
Meaning, should it be not such a good experience you in, do not allow the feelings to take over totally. So that it makes you physically sick at the end and you do not know which way to turn.
YES please feel it. Cry if you need to. Scream if you need to. Get angry if you need to.
Then balance it out with love and gentleness. Be good towards yourself, spoil yourself. Sit on the ground and suck up the wonderful energy coming from Mother Earth. Hug a tree and perhaps dig your fingers into the ground. Be outside and find gratitude. Feel good stuff.

But otherwise? Nope, no skipping, just go with the flow and enjoy the ride. Experience it.
Be in the now and in the moment. As by looking too far ahead you are not allowing the process to flow and cheating on what has to happen. You know, it will catch up later with you anyways.

Take it as it comes, enjoy it all. The good and the not so good. As with all, there is always something good hidden for us to learn. By being in the now, we might just have the best possible outcome on our plates and are able to make good choices.

So, I will now sit back and enjoy my rollercoaster ride. No skip, no short cuts, just good plain old – BE.
I am going to be a zombie when I want to be and be the sweet girl (of course I am always one) which I naturally am.

Love, light and lightness on this wonderful journey
Diana x

Here is my story

Today I would like to share with you my story. More kind of a short story.
Now only literally a few days away from moving to our first stop, I am edgy and filled with so many different emotions. A good six year chapter of my life is closing and I am taking with, a lot of lessons learned, new discovered gifts and passions and most of all – MY SON!
These six years past have been a journey of awakening and realization of who I truly am.
As am writing I am smiling, as it has bin a rough roller coaster ride.

You know, I think one walks into such abusive relationships with open eyes which are closed.
One knows this relationship is not right and yet one closes ones eyes, and ignores all alarms going off. I had to do this again, because my first marriage I tend to ignore the lessons, yet gained a first step in awakening and stopped. So Universe/God decided, that I was urgently needed and send me on a true boot camp with this second marriage.

Like today I remember the beginning of 2005. I have just decided to stop drinking/partying and smoking and to be for some odd reason become more mindful. There he stepped into my life in March 2005 and turned my life upside down.
From the beginning it was not ok. He drank a lot and was very very manipulative. Yes I know, alcoholics tend to be this way. I believed all his promises and walked into this marriage, almost like knowing: death row is near.
I had Oliver end of 2006. Nothing has changed. More abuse and control and manipulation.
At one stage is was so angry in my life. Woke up in the morning with a frown on my face and my mouth hanging to the ground. One could say it bordered on depression. With each day I was a bit more hopeless, a bit more sad and pushed into a life I did not want to live.
Not knowing that this was my push to where I am today.
Sad actually that humans have to learn with pain and then hopefully wake up.
Besides all the violent force in my life, I am taking so much more with me.
I could have turned bitter and sour, especially after I walked out once for a few weeks and returned back on empty promises. Yes I know, silly me. But it had to happen this way and it is ok.
Look at me today, even though the last few days and hours are a true challenge in an emotional way, it is ok too. Sounds sick doesn’t it

I have learned to be grateful, patient, open minded and hearted and to have compassion. Most of all I have learned to have faith. Live faith, breath faith and feel faith.
With this faith I am now learning to let go and live in the moment and see things as they are and take them as they are. Make choices for the now and change if I do not like it. Set my boundaries and walk my truth. I will not be violent, just because somebody else chooses it to be. I am the change. I am the change I want to see in the world.
My son will in a few days, see a mother he can look up to and copy. See how it is done. See how to be so much love, that it overflows. And see that addiction and abuse and bullying is a NO GO!
In a few days, I am out of here. Then most likely the battle of divorce and custody will start.
I have faith, that I am protected and is well. As with fear I would give my power away and succumb in the dark.

Life is amazing, despite all the turbulence. I am receiving love from so many people. Have received financial help from a friend, I never thought in my life would help me. THANK YOU!
Now I will start doing what I came to do. Write and share and be of assistance.
PLEASE, this here is intended to be an inspiration to other women and some men out there in similar circumstances. I am not a victim anymore. On the contrary, I came to shine and live my life so that others asleep, will awaken and perhaps follow. I came here in assistance to heal others and myself at the same time.
Wake up, protect yourself and step out of the fear. If I can do it ~ so can you. Violence is not an option.
Never has and never will be. One doesn’t have to walk away and leave all behind. One doesn’t. Perhaps at the beginning as my boy and I, have to live in a smaller place? But we taking our animals with.
Life is not about compromising. Adjust if YOU want to and have faith. Feel it in your heart.
With love, light and lightness
Diana x

Power And A Voice For Humanity

Dear fellow cohabitants of Planet Earth lately this whole situation here on this planet has been becoming rather confusing for me.
Let me explain. We all can see so many things going hair wire, violence, abuse, manipulation, greed, hunger, but just to name a few. Why we do not step up and stop it?
You said what? We cannot?? Sorry why?? Oh, there is a system. Good. Whose and what system? Who is this system serving? Humanity?? Are we agreeing the answer here will be a NO?!

So, why are we allowing so many thing to go “wrong”? Why do we allow to be fed with lies, why do we allow manipulation, why do we allow choices being made FOR us, why do we allow violence and abuse and so on and so forth.
What are we truly afraid of. Why are we silence, even though we feel in our core what is going on is not working anymore on this Earth plane?
Once one is awakening these things become so obvious.  One cannot help, but wanting to jump and help and make a change in 20.000 places at the same time.
It puzzles me daily that people are complaining about so many things and yet tending to ignore the fact, that they could make a change, once shaken off the fear?! They would rather ignore and wait for somebody else to take the first step. We still waiting……….

One of my not so favorite topics is this thing with “regulating” herbal medicine. Oh come on please, now somebody is telling me, they are registering the herbal medicine I grew up with, for my own safety. Please!!! Taking away my choice?
What else do we have, oh ja corruption in politics and greed. Now why do we accept that there has to be a certain list to be followed to proof that it is true? And at the end of the day, the person gets off and lots of tax payers money has been wasted. If you would be caught in your company doing the same, BAM you would be out, no questions asked. Branded for life. Wouldn’t you?

Why do we accept to be fed fear. And this on a daily basis. Big time. Yes this place right now is a scary place to live in, but fighting fear with more fear and fighting separation with creating more of it. We not going to get anywhere.

Now imagine, if we all would stand up and fight against crime and violence PEACEFULLY!
If we all would stand up as ONE and say to some leaders: sorry three warnings you out.
What could they do? Nothing.
We can be so powerful and achieving good things for our planet. Just stick together.
As the “dark” can do this with creating fear and keeps the masses controlled, so can we start sticking together as the light we are and do good and make the change.
To make things happen and stand together, we need to break free and start taking in fresh air into our lungs and cells again. Think our own thoughts and take our power back. It is after all a FREE WILL PLANET!
My choices, my life. Listen to your heart and start trusting this guiding voice inside.
At the beginning it might feel odd and people might think you crazy. “Crazy is good “
Live your life from your heart and let the warmth of love be your energy fountain.
Life is good and is peaceful we just have to choose it for oneself and for all of us.

Each and one of us has a wonderful gift. Become aware of it and use it. We all need you here to make this happen.
For those already awaken, gather and shine your light and walk your truth.
Those awakening, there is light around you. Trust and you will see it and feel it.
Fear is truly just and illusion.

Now go and grow your voice, speak up and lets stand as ONE. To take our power back and make this world a place where love rules.
Love, light and lightness your way
Diana x

Now honestly……

…..what is it with humanity and the fear of being honest and taking responsibility for their own lives?
Lately it seems so in my face with people not being honest.

See, previously I got very offended and hurt when people lied to me. How can a person break my trust and do this to me. It took me years and years of growth and learning to understand, they not lying to me, they lying to themselves.
Honesty is a HUGE challenge. When you start waking up and start releasing of all that is not good and old – one has to be honest to be able to release it. Accept what is and then allow a change to happen. Being honest in this process can be painful. A pain which then can heal and not leave scars.
Not being honest is disabling you, to become the true you. The you which is waiting to emerge.

I do understand that to being dis-honest towards oneself or others, is originating from fear.
Fear of being caught, fear of not being loved, fear of hurting somebody with a  respond and and and.
This fear thing is an absolute illusion, we just think it is real. But it is not.
Let say for example: somebody is asking you for financial help and is truly desperate. You are giving either odd answers to buy time or not responding at all. Because you don’t have the money or don’t want to help.
What does it show you? Yes you do not want to hurt the other person.
In actual fact you do so much more and you hurt yourself too.
A) you will feel uncomfortable because you did not reply
B) you are disabling the other party by cheating him/her of the true answer and therefore lesson
You have further cheated yourself out of the responsibility to take charge of your life. You let it slide.
Being responsible is a cool thing to do. Fear and not taking charge of your life aka not being responsible is backing out, is an illusion. We have been brought up with living a lie and allowing others to take charge of our lives. For so many years and decades.

NOW the time is right to let go of all these illusions and fear. We living in great times, times of the great shift and release of old belief systems.
Take charge and BE responsible for your life and your creation, it is a good thing. It is fun
Be honest. For your sake, as it will help you to grow. For others, as you change, so will those around you too. The Law Of Attraction!
Be honest and see the signs and accept the signs, when things start going a bit hair wire and change directions. Do not carry on, on the path which eventually will take you down.
Honesty, honesty and some more honesty.

My wish for today? That you will find the strength to be honest towards yourself and take your life into your hands. Be responsible. This of course as well for lots of the politicians and those holding the “power” in their hands.
In love, light and lightness
D xox

The wonderful and magnificent YOU!

In the whole process of awakening, it was the hardest to discover who I am and makes me tick. Most of all to learn to understand that all starts with myself. The dreams, hopes, loves and the better world we want to live in.
Now there are so many people out there talking about spirituality and changing the world, and am still so often surprised they do not get it, that they first have to clean their own front yard and not look outside for changes.
What I mean by this is, we as humanity have been now following blindly so many things in our lives for eons, that we have to learn to be ourselves. Grow an own voice, own ears and own lives.
For so long it seems to me, we did not have our own identity, and have been handed over our parents baggage and eaten up all we have been served by others. We kept quiet.
It is time now, with the flow of these energies, and awakening of so many others, to start cleaning up ones inner selves and take stock.
Honesty - towards oneself is a rather challenging thing to accept. Just look, when you in an argument and the other person tells you: you have to change . . .
OH do we get mad and offensive??? Me changing? What is wrong with me? You change!! BAM!!
Why we getting so offensive? Why is our ego getting so offensive?
Because it is uncomfortable to look with in and deal with pain? Same old same old is so comfy?

Write down or paint your perfect life, how you want to be, your friends, your kids, your partner and ultimately your world.
Then take stock and start within. YES start with YOU!!! You have forgotten how many outstanding qualities and gifts you have. How much magic there is inside of you. A love just wanting to be discovered and be let free to roam.
YOU, are wonderful and magical being.
Stop looking on the outside to make yourself better, your kids, your friends and your world.
YOU, have it all to make the change for yourself and for us all.

Become aware of, how your unique magnificent light has an impact on your surrounding. Like the drop of water which makes the clear sea ripple.
This awareness is so important for you to make these steps, to become the best you can be.
I cannot give you a receipt on what and how to do things. As I already mentioned, there are a million of us awakening and there are million different stories and ways to be chosen.
You are you, and your journey is yours. Yes please, read, discuss and share as much as you can. But please ~ be aware it is yours alone. This awakening ~ his journey.
Take in the info and let it sink in and resonate with you. Take what is good and leave behind what is not serving you.
The time of walking in the light is here, not tomorrow. NOW
Walking your own path and discerning what is right for you and all of us is so crucial.
There will be lots of distracting information offered, more lies and more fear spread amongst humanity. You have the confidence to see and listen what is your truth. Stay on and walk your truth and be your true self.

I love this life of mine and I love my journey with all that it brings. Some days are sunny and some are rainy. But at the end of the day it is in balance and harmony.
To make this world a better place, to make it to the ultimate shift.
WE need you. This beautiful, perfect and filled with love and light YOU!.
Now I will leave you to take stock, paint your picture and I will see you soon . . . . in our perfect world.

In love, light and lightness
Diana

Old habits die hard

Have you ever had the feeling of being in a situation and looking at it and thinking:
I should now get upset? or: I used to get upset now?
This is a very good state to be in. You asking why? As perhaps consciously or subconsciously you are in a state of balance and yes good on your way of being aware of your true self.
See, when one is asleep aka not aware what is going on, one is re-acting instead of acting. Emotions run wild and one attracts more of the same old same old, because 1) it is comfortable even though it is painful (even not perceived as such) and 2) it is a habit. YES a wonderful habit of reacting. And how annoying is that!

Now when one starts releasing old believe systems and pains, and increasingly is in a state of joy and happiness, it gets scary. Scary not because of woohoo, because one is not use to just BEing and just all is ok. Despite perhaps things in closer range should make one freak out and behave like the “old” maniac. One stays for more and more moments in: it is ok as it is and I deal with it as it comes.
THESE moments are so  precious. One ACTS out of a space of true self-awareness and out of this new opportunities and solutions occur.
Often feelings of guilty and why do I feel now so good and am just relaxed where I should be unhappy or angry etc..
Believe me, when you in the state of just BE, this great state of being on a high ~ somebody with a dark cloud hanging over your head will try to get you down.
DO NOT again DO NOT feel guilty. YOU are HAPPY. Happiness is a choice and on this journey sometimes hard work.

But as we have been living for eons in an unaware state, fear and all its emotions have become second nature to us. The days and years we have been told this is how you have to feel and do and think. We thought it is us! Sorry to disappoint you there, it is not us. Perhaps it has in a way shaped us for who we are right now, but it is not our true us.
All this screaming and shouting and kicking and and and have become a bad habit. To let them go might take a day or two (or years . . in my case LOL)
Choose to be happy and in peace and choose to let go of the habits of the past involving fear and what comes with it. It is your birthright!!!
Now for example you leaving a relationship which has not served you in a long time. It doesn’t have to be in right or wrong and bad words and feelings just because million of other relationships ended like this. YOU choose. If the other person thinks being calm and collected about the break up means another chance – their stuff. Not yours. Speak clear and calm and kind, from your place from within.
Let go of this bad habits of feeling guilty when you actually at peace. One habit and step at the time.

Am wishing you well and be kind to yourself
Love and light and lightness on this wonderful journey
Diana x
PS: of course as always as it resonates with you